"someone who has nothing better to do"about the heartbreak again
I'm back!!! xD Sorry kanina ah...hehe..anyways. Yun nga. At that time, I felt so devastated but now I just laugh off my story. Let me start my wonderful, yucky, regretful journey in heartbreakville (ngeh corny). So JUST LET ME START!!!
Once upon a time, I fell in love with a guy. Or maybe I just liked him. I dunno....basta I have feelings for him. But sadly, he never returned the affections I had for him. He liked another girl, and too bad, she was my best friend at that time. Desperate to talk to him, I befriended him, being his textmate...so and so. I was the 'tulay' in the story, I would always comfort him...cheer him up everytime my best friend basted him. So pinagbigyan na siya...they were on for a week. (Ok, that was pathetic but we were kids back then...or a year ago...who cares!! past is past!) Then one day..around August of 2003 he told me that he didn't like the girl anymore and he began to like someone. So I was getting all sweaty and excited...WHO COULD THAT BE?? Then he finally told me he liked me. That was such a great great feeling I can't explain. I can't even eat dinner at that time. I mean, desperately clinging on to someone who didn't have a tad bit of affections to you then suddenly here he was, confessing his feeling for me. That felt so nice... anyway the feeling. I don't like the guy now. To death. We are just friends....I just thought my experience with him was very unique...so I always remembered it.
Suddenly one day sportsfest came and he began to take on a new journey. Sportsfest are full of people...(including flings from the past, new crush scoops, etc) so it was a bigger world for us. Then suddenly he saw this girl, some girl from his previous school. Then he told me that he was having feelings for her. Then one guy was txting me and all so he thought I was falling for that texter guy. So I was left right there. LOL funny story. Not!! >__> I cried for weeks....two weeks I think then I swear to everyone I knew that I will not cry because of a guy again. I even wrote it in my diary. So my good two months was through. And that was my first painful heartbreak....I will not be serious anymore until my mind is mature enough to perceive what LOVE really is. Up to now still remember both feelings....it's not the person that's important whom let it happen to me but the experience itself...at least now I know the feeling of having someone like you back, and having someone disappoint you afterwards. So what am I still looking for?
Sometimes it' true that it's just plain hard to wait for the right time. But still, I will wait. There's this quote texted to me before, it goes like: Don't let them mock you because you are single! Just say, "Don't worry. God's making the best love story for me.." and I think that's very true. We all have to wait for the right time, rushing it up will cause us to have more and more things to regret in the future. I really hate regretting things and a lot of them are all connected to past crushes.
One thing is final. If it's not true, then it will fade for sometime. You don't need to cry about it, be over-obsessed over it nor even think about it. Just let it be. Admire. Love. Crush. Be friends. That's what I do. I know it might seem hard to do but it's the best thing to do....you don't have to face any regretful consequences. I don't want to share about the person I really like now. I guess it's just for me and my close friends. I can't say anything about him. What if he knew about it? Then I would eventually regret that I liked him....so the process goes ad infinitum if I keep blabbing out things about him.
Love things.....it's really weird because once you bite into them they're like drugs you can get hooked in. It's best to wait for God's right person and right time. So that you won't have to be sick of your pasts...or exes (yuckkkk)....or what you did before just to get noticed (eeeewww) yuck I really hate remembering those!!! >__>;; grr!!! >.< But it's really a good thing that God picked me up and gave me a piece of mind. He told me that I will waste my time on those things.....so I guess there's nothing bad liking this person...just liking not doing anything, not exaggerating anything... It's better off this way. :D
Once upon a time, I fell in love with a guy. Or maybe I just liked him. I dunno....basta I have feelings for him. But sadly, he never returned the affections I had for him. He liked another girl, and too bad, she was my best friend at that time. Desperate to talk to him, I befriended him, being his textmate...so and so. I was the 'tulay' in the story, I would always comfort him...cheer him up everytime my best friend basted him. So pinagbigyan na siya...they were on for a week. (Ok, that was pathetic but we were kids back then...or a year ago...who cares!! past is past!) Then one day..around August of 2003 he told me that he didn't like the girl anymore and he began to like someone. So I was getting all sweaty and excited...WHO COULD THAT BE?? Then he finally told me he liked me. That was such a great great feeling I can't explain. I can't even eat dinner at that time. I mean, desperately clinging on to someone who didn't have a tad bit of affections to you then suddenly here he was, confessing his feeling for me. That felt so nice... anyway the feeling. I don't like the guy now. To death. We are just friends....I just thought my experience with him was very unique...so I always remembered it.
Suddenly one day sportsfest came and he began to take on a new journey. Sportsfest are full of people...(including flings from the past, new crush scoops, etc) so it was a bigger world for us. Then suddenly he saw this girl, some girl from his previous school. Then he told me that he was having feelings for her. Then one guy was txting me and all so he thought I was falling for that texter guy. So I was left right there. LOL funny story. Not!! >__> I cried for weeks....two weeks I think then I swear to everyone I knew that I will not cry because of a guy again. I even wrote it in my diary. So my good two months was through. And that was my first painful heartbreak....I will not be serious anymore until my mind is mature enough to perceive what LOVE really is. Up to now still remember both feelings....it's not the person that's important whom let it happen to me but the experience itself...at least now I know the feeling of having someone like you back, and having someone disappoint you afterwards. So what am I still looking for?
Sometimes it' true that it's just plain hard to wait for the right time. But still, I will wait. There's this quote texted to me before, it goes like: Don't let them mock you because you are single! Just say, "Don't worry. God's making the best love story for me.." and I think that's very true. We all have to wait for the right time, rushing it up will cause us to have more and more things to regret in the future. I really hate regretting things and a lot of them are all connected to past crushes.
One thing is final. If it's not true, then it will fade for sometime. You don't need to cry about it, be over-obsessed over it nor even think about it. Just let it be. Admire. Love. Crush. Be friends. That's what I do. I know it might seem hard to do but it's the best thing to do....you don't have to face any regretful consequences. I don't want to share about the person I really like now. I guess it's just for me and my close friends. I can't say anything about him. What if he knew about it? Then I would eventually regret that I liked him....so the process goes ad infinitum if I keep blabbing out things about him.
Love things.....it's really weird because once you bite into them they're like drugs you can get hooked in. It's best to wait for God's right person and right time. So that you won't have to be sick of your pasts...or exes (yuckkkk)....or what you did before just to get noticed (eeeewww) yuck I really hate remembering those!!! >__>;; grr!!! >.< But it's really a good thing that God picked me up and gave me a piece of mind. He told me that I will waste my time on those things.....so I guess there's nothing bad liking this person...just liking not doing anything, not exaggerating anything... It's better off this way. :D
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