Vacation here I come!!

Yey! The moment I placed the last letter on my last exam, I realized that another year has passed by and here I am! I'm already a senior....gosh, time flies so fast.


Well, I can say it's been a blast. This schoolyear was a rollercoaster ride for me :) I had my ups and downs--in all aspects of my life this year--in grades, family, friends, and my walk with God. This year was very special for me because I became really closer to God than I ever had before. I never want to stop loving Him, and I don't hope to backslide. Ever. I'm still waiting for that big event, the 'camp' as they say, or The Retreat which transformed their lives and renewed their faith in God. :)

Besides that, there's another thing I've been waiting for. PROM!!! MY gewdnezz it's on fridaii na!!! HARHAR weeee I'm zooo exzited hehehe....:)) wonder what'll they say about how I look? ;p

We won't see each other again for 2 months. I'm so happy I can relax this vacation and go to DVBS. :) it's fun there. But I'll still miss my class. This is my message for them.

Dear Wisdom,

You know what? I'm really smiling right now. I'm so happy that I've been with you for another schoolyear. Though there are those times I only thought of this class as pain, I regret those things. I learned a lot from you guys. I learned how it's like to be in your shoes. I understand all of you. I will keep, and keep praying for all of you.

Whew. Been 3 years noh? I had my cries about this class. Somtimes I hated you, but it can never outgrow the love and care I already had inside. Even Ms. Arlyn thought about this too. She was even crying. I just can't think of anything to say that will touch your hearts but all I want to say is that I love you. So much. I will never stop caring about you. No, I never want any of you to separate. If I could have the chance to exchange all of you for the 'better' or 'ideal', I'd rather suffer with you. Let's just stick together guys. We're growing up, let's do this together nalang. We can have fun while growing up. But you guys know your limitations naman diba? So let's just do it!!

Wala lang. Happy vacation wisdom....oops "prudence" na pala...yiheee!! Wag na magrepeater...Magsummer na yung kailangan magsummer ha!! :D God bless keii!

Struggles

Comparing?

As a teenager, I struggle with comparing myself to other people, or to other girls rather. I put on an imaginary tally sheet where I rate my talents, my popularity, or my physical attributes to her. If I think I'm better, I become conceited. If I think I'm lesser than her, I pity myself.

And obviously, it's not healthy. It's a habit that girls or guys should break free from. We should never think we are greater or lesser than the other person. I used to struggle a lot when I was in my pre-teen years, when I thought that everybody was better than me. I was a bit fat then, and I felt that all I could show to them was my grades. I guess high grades don't make you cool in a crowd. But now, I broke free from that bondage. I became myself.

How can we break free from this struggle?
It's not easy to just throw this bad habit away. We have to put in our mind some things first before we can totally stop comparison.

1.) Remember that God made you as who you are now. When you were not born, your identity was on his mind all the time. He carefully planned how you would look like, what your attributes would be, and all else. He also thought of you as a reflection of who He is. He made you in His image. So if we are small glimpses of God's complex character, then why would we compare ourselves?

2.) I read this from a book. "God has an infinite of features to draw from." But! It's a great thing that He didn't make everyone else the same. Imagine if all girls were created with slender bodies and chinita faces, or if guys all grow up to be tall and machos, then the earth would be boring right? Everyone is created different, even identical twins.

3.) The problem with people is they base greatness on the earth's standards. In the world, you have to be good-looking, rich, and popular to be great. But what are all of these in the course of time? Good looks fade. Money comes and goes. Popularity is just a span. They all deteriorate at one point or another. Do you want these things to be your basis of greatness? I don't think so. It's not bad to be handsome or beautiful, or to be rich, or to be popular, but we should never let it be the sole purpose of our lives. We are meant for bigger, better things.

4.) We should parallel our basis of greatness to God's standards. The root of envying or comparing ourselves to other people is because we don't want to make ourselves great in God's eyes. We want to be "cool" for the world. God says if we dedicate our lives in serving Him, believing Him, and following Him, we can be great in His eyes. That's just so wonderful! Where would you chose to be great? In earth where all things fade? Or in God's kingdom where we could shine forever and be great for His glory?

I hope you get to understand why we should never, ever compare ourselves to other people in the sense that it affects our well-being. :)

I heard a song from my classmate, and I was touched by its lyrics.

"Don't you ever wish you were someone else. You were meant to be the way you are exactly. Don't you ever say that you don't like the way you are. When you learn to love yourself, you're better off by far. And I hope you stay the same 'cause there's nothing about you I won't change."

Stay the Same
Joey Mcintyre

In random

I have lots of things to tell besides the fact that JS Prom is nearing (kinda late, eh noh)! But anyways, like everyone else, I'm hyped because it's my first ball! My mom, sister and I went shopping and we found this pretty, breezy dress (some kind of a cocktailish thingy) and some cushioned step-ins. Well, I think it's my dream look for prom. ="> I think I'm gonna be posting pics. :)

Wala lang. Today was a blast. I bought everything that I needed. A pretty hairpiece to match my dress, and powdered blush to avoid pink oily gunk on my face. :-) Hay. And on top of that, I got to eat one of the most delicious (yes, I mean delicious) Filipino viands--DINUGUAN! Looks are so deceiving. I ate it with puto. I tell you when it comes to eating, I tend to prioritize on people's testimonies rather than my own senses! :P MMMMmmmm...

What else? I'm going on a diet. Just a diet to last till the prom day. The dress is obviously fit, and I can't risk pigging out! I have slow metabolism compared to my sibs (as I lean on the fatty side compared to both of them who are on the thinny side) and I guess making considerations are very important.

With these events unfolding right before my very eyes, I don't see no reason to be sad at all. These little things make life worth-living. Those simple things I can do, like hang out with my family, or eating dinuguan, or buying stuff I like, I really feel like this is one of God's rewards here on earth.

Well, that's about it. Today, I'm generally happy. Nothing to be sad about. Tomorrow, after the Youth Worship, I'm going to turn it full blast. I'm really going to study in Chemistry I promise. I've been much of a sloth lately, I know that. I pray God will give me enough concentration to get through my review hours without making boredom affect me. :-)

Am I being complacent?

Lately I've been feeling so sucky. These routinish thing I've been doing is not making me happy. I don't know if this is just a temporary mood or not, but I feel so flabbergasted. Was that a right to term to say about what I feel? Well maybe some kind of a wasted, bored, tired, unanticipating feeling.

Is it just because I miss him? Okay. Maybe not. I read my diary and about several months ago I was deeply infatuatedwith this guy, and now he's out of my sight, I regret every mushy thing I did to know him. I DON'T WANT THAT TO HAPPEN AGAIN.

Or maybe because I'm just physically tired. It's morning here, Sunday, 17 minutes passed and I'm still not asleep. I can't go to sleep when something's bothring me. I need to constantly type it in my blog.

Sigh. I really need to talk to God these days. Most of the time kasi, I sleep at the midst of praying that's why I forget what I pray about. I wish that school would end so I can do my things freely without anything butting of my schedule. Right now I feel so bored and sad. I really need to talk to God. I need some inspiration to get me going. :-(

I'm a Jesus Zone!

I want to go back to that special day. I miss that special Saturday, that Saturday that I felt that everything was in its right place. I was part of that beautiful crowd. Those young, shining people whose hearts are for God alone. I mean, how rare could you see these sites? Most of young people today are drinking booze, partying, having fun, doing things that would be regretful when they come to a realization point.

But these, these people like my age? They may look like the same faces we see around the mall, but they are different. They rock for God! I want to go to J-Sound next year. I want to witness (again) how God moves people, especially young people of my age. I remember, they had this insignia, a last song they played which said something like, "I'm a Jesus Zone! His name is living in me..." They held up all their hands to form the letter "J". And it feels so right to be in that place were everyone was one in worship of the Lord. And it's not any other typical worship, it's youthfully modified, full of acoustic and alternative worship goodies. Jesus really rocked the people out! Kudos to the bands and artists who played! I wanna go next year ulit! ^__~