how it's like

if you've waited so long for something

and you came to realize that

that thing you've waited for

is not for you

because you're feeling that

another thing came along

and took it away from you

so easily

help...

can I just skip this phase?

I don't see the point in paining myself

why is it so hard to let go?

let me face the hard cold truth

let me feel it now

until it's too late to escape

I know God will be there. God will be there.

it's like walking on a road

knowing the fact that

there's a pit at the end waiting for you.

it could hurt at some point

but I don't want to feel it

I want Jesus to rescue me quick.

Should I still hold on the rope?

or should I learn to let go?

I need signs so badly...

it's been too long. Too long.

I'm still praying.