Batangas, here we go again!

My Holy Week days were spent on Nasugbu Beach. Yaay. Haha. Me, my family and my cousins and my cousin's parents went to Sea Front Beach Camp in Nasugbu. We stayed there for 3 days and well, I had lots of memories there. =)

The Beach
Hay. It's good to be back again, to feel like it's summer once again. This schoolyear's been a heck of a stresspile. It just feels good that we went to the beach for a break.

Togetherness
I love vacations like these. There's these moments where you sit back and thank God that you have people like them in your life. I'm just happy that I have my family with me. I'm really grateful that despite our differing schedules and priorities we still had time for each other. Just the thought makes me happy. :)

Aaron's Large Cut
Aaron had a large wound on his toe. Staring at it makes me feel so dizzy, I mean, I just can't take the sight of blood. Hahaha. I guess God has His reasons perhaps?:) to keep Aaron from drowning? Hehe.

Horse Ride
It's my second time to ride a horse (the 1st time was like when I was 5 years old? haha). It feels so nice. And I feel like I want to keep a horse for a pet. Wala lang. They seem so calm and lovely. I love horses!

Karaoke Vibes
Can you believe that we actually sang on a Karaoke at the middle of the resort? Our voices were practically heard in the whole area. Hahaha. And guess what we sang? Wowowee songs, novelties, Jukebox hits. Hehe. I can't forget these times.

Mr. Anonymous
There's this guy who showed interest the moment we were singing in the Karaoke area. He dedicated this song to me--"Wherever You Will Go - The Calling". And he even talked my tito into introducing him to me. It never happened though, but we were exchanging glances. Throughout the whole time we were in Batangas, I felt awkward about it. But honestly, I felt really flattered! Because I find him cute! He was chinito, and he doesn't seem to be that kind of guy who would do those things. I never knew his name though, haha. Well in some ways, he made my day. Hahaha! What's his name?! I'll never see him again haha. Oh well. I guess I'll forget about him anyway. XD

That's it!! I love everything that happened during our summer vacation and I thank God for everything. I'm very happy. =D

Mark of the Beast

I've been hearing lots of news about a chip being implanted on the hands or foreheads of the people in hospitals of core regions like North America and Europe. Supposedly, there's a news about the technology being adapted here, sooner or later, and it will exist as a new form of ID system. I don't know with you guys but this has been a scary thought for me. What if this is really the Mark of the Beast? Wouldn't Christians be scared? I don't know how Christian churches would respond to this. I hope news will get to the people before it's too late.

If we are really nearing the End of Times, then isn't it time to stand and prepare ourselves for Christ's second coming?

Bible's prophecies, if not true, is never significant. If it is indeed true, then it is the most significant thing we will ever know in our lifetime. The only thing it cannot be is being moderately significant. I don't know with people who go about their lives complacently, but for me this is a big thing. When I think about it, I realize that I have only one life to live and there are too many uncertainties on this world upon which I can never dedicate my life to. What's the purpose of this life if we existed for the mere thought that we will just breath on this earth to experience mundane things? That's why my faith is the only thing I have ever held on to. I have, and will always trust Christ in everything.

Bottom line is, I'd rather starve to death than to allow them to put that chip in my system.

Hibernating Heart

I was doing my periodic Friendster profile 'stalking' of some people I know in my list. I came across one of my classmate's page and a song played on her profile. I scrolled down her page and saw this: "Edwin Mccain - I Could Not Ask For More". And that very second, I felt like my heart was hollow. I thought about how long I stopped liking someone of the opposite sex.

Almost half a year, I guess.

Stupid love songs. I already promised myself that if I won't find someone who'll completely meet God's standards, I'd rather stay single for the rest of my life. But songs like these make me vulnerable.

I imagined how wonderful it would feel if I had a perfect guy whose hands I would hold while we watch the sun go down during a breezy afternoon.

Or maybe he'll be the one to fetch me from school, and we'll eat dinner together.

Or we'll watch a corny Filipino movie together and laugh our butts out.

Or maybe he'll help me do the laundry and we'll hang the clothes together. We'll both look wasted in front of each other. Hahaha.

I always chuckle with these thoughts. When oh when will I find this guy? Or will I ever find him? I don't even know! All I can do now is to trust and wait for God's plan.=)

Friday Rant!! Secrets and Thoughts

I just came home from school and my legs are sore from walking. My eyes look lazy and I just feel like I need to do something productive tonight, but I know I just really can't because I feel tired. Procrastination is taking over me! So instead of doing something school-related (like studying for 2 of my finals exams on Monday), I decided to make a small rant about stuff I'm thinking about.

Insecurities
To be honest, I never really saw myself as a "totally great" person. I know at times it may not show when I'm with my friends or acquaintances, but sometimes I do feel insecure.

Not smart enough - this might be a no brainer just because I'm in UP, but sometimes I feel like I'm not smart enough when I'm with these people. I mean, I've been consistent and my class standing is on the upper half, but I really can't excel to the point that I'm the one on top. I have a hard time expressing myself spontaneously, compared to some. I'm trying to get my way though. I just feel like sometimes, no matter how much effort I put in something, it just ends up being overshadowed by a classmate which seems to shine in the eyes of my professor.

Not pretty enough - I never saw myself as a naturally pretty person. I have to dress, to wear make-up, to do lots of maintenance with my face and my body to project to the world how I want them to see me. Sometimes, I feel disheartened that some girls have all the things in this world--they have such beautiful faces and slender bodies you can ever imagine, and they don't ever have to do a thing. Forgive me if I sound ungrateful, but I know there are a lot of girls in this world who share the same thoughts. And sometimes, I do feel insecure about this. I know it's bad, but sometimes I wonder if this is the reason why nobody I intentionally admired ever admired me back.

Not rich enough - Most of the time, I don't feel comfortable around people whom lived their lives more luxuriously than I did. I'm afraid that they'll belittle my humor, my interests, my views about life, and lots of other things. I tend to recede in conversations when they talk about stuff I can hardly relate. Sometimes, I feel like I'm not rich enough to even mingle with these people. It's one of the reasons moved away from a certain group of people. I have nothing against them, honestly. It's just that I can't pretend that I can line myself with them. I just feel so different.

But who am I to degradingly think of myself as this? Does God judge me this way to make me even think that I'm not that pretty, not that smart nor rich enough? Saying these things to myself is like saying that His plans and His reasons are gruesome mistakes.

I'm throwing these thoughts away.

I know there's a reason why God put me here and why He gave this kind of life I'm in. And for that, I will always be grateful.