I'm frustrated beyond words

Ok. First of all, you know that I'm a very sensitive person when it comes to my faith. In front of you, I never questioned why Catholics bow down to saints where as a fact all believers are saints themselves. I AM NOT SAYING THAT I AM HOLIER THAN EVERYONE ELSE IN THAT CLASS. I know it is my job to gather all the lost sheep, but they are not sheeps! They are hypocrites. Once I invited them in our little group outside school and I showed them what it's like to be like us. A week after? They go and make fun of me. They are weeds, weeds that kill and suffocate my faith. Countless times I have tried to grin and bear it but now I just can't. You belittled me so much. You insulted me so much beyond what I can bear without crying. I'm not crying because of that leadership issue. I can drop it off anytime like nothing happened but this Bible thing is really getting into me.

I can't believe you. I put so much respect in you because you are a very wise and opinionated man and full of aspiration, but you have disappointed me so much. You always go and say, "You and Your Bible" It's almost every wrong I do, you link it all up to the Bible like you know everything! It's as if you accused the Bible, its incapability to mend all my weaknesses and flaws. But no! Who do you think you are, to argue and wrestle in wrestle in everyone's mind that all of your words are accurate? Are correct? Are the only ones substantial? Your knowledge is not enough to fill us in. But God is always full of mercy, if it wasn't for his Holy Spirit I would've answered you back so rudely. There you go again, you act like you know everything.

You push me so hard that I am like a numb robot with no feelings. You said that your school had a geniuine mission, and that is to let every individual be themselves to the fullest. But you made me the minimal. You made me feel that I don't belong here. The more I became close to people outside this school, the more detach myself from people here. The more I love God, the more I hate the ways of this world.

"Don't be comformed by the ways of this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind."

Romans 12:2

Don't worry. I'll never answer you back. Just don't dare touch the subject of questioning God and the Bible. We are not some religious cult and try to understand that. And remember that the Bible has more authority than you, than everyone of us. So don't act like mister know-it-all, or mister I-can't-accept-your-point. I listened to yours, over and over, countless times since my elementary days. It's your time to hear mine.

I'll pray for you. But don't expect me to agree at everything you said because clever comebacks does not mean anything if your tongue is not in His side. I agree, you are encrusted with knowledgable things compared to me, but if I need to defend something from your mind full of reasons and your tongue full words, then let it so. Through this incident, I learned a lot of things. I still believe that God is still pushing through to work in their lives, even if now is not the time.