What the...

Okay, so I'm kind of in a mood right now to make a post. Though it's a less literary-expounded entry, well, I guess here it goes. I just needed some outlet.

I was reading the posts I made more than a year ago and I was shocked by the way I felt things about a certain person. Why did I even allow myself to be depressed by some person who isn't even taking control of my life? I mean, is he that important? Pinapakain nya ba ako? Ano ba sya sa buhay ko? Am I that gullible before? I feel so stupid now. XD I don't know, I guess there are some things in my life that I will regret year after year until I learn to grow from my mistakes.

After all, since I'm not really that sentimental about that person now, I realized that my intentions upon going to church before were not genuinely pure. Going to church for him, not for Him. Naiinis talaga ako. Sino ba sya? Why did I even make myself become so awfully affected, especially the time during camp where I found out that he was liking this other girl? I mean, so? It's not an issue of bitterness or anything. It's just that, I feel so stupid that I have become a slave of some obsession that lead to nothingness. And what did I get out of it? Absolutely nothing.

Well, I just hope he's also happy now. Because I am. I'm not saying that I found another guy to obsess about, not anymore. It's like I've gone out of that stage, and nothing's serious or overly depressing since him. I guess it really happens when your burnt out of lurve. -->YUCK! haha! =)