"someone who has nothing better to do"You
You smile, my heart stirs with glee.
I like everything about you. Crazy enough, I look for you in every crowd. Just to know that you are there makes me happy enough.
Just do your thing. You might not know, but I am a fan. I wonder, can I ever reach someone like you? Can I even approach you just so I could know what it's like to have converse with you? But I am weak. I can never move an inch closer because I hate to see you move away.
What is not true will be gone. You don't need to know me. I don't need to sandwich myself in your life. I don't want to hurt anymore, I don't want to make things complicated for you. I have already predicted something that would likely happen if I forced myself into your life. I won't fall in line, don't worry. Be busy with everyone else, but expect me not to be there. I'll just watch you over with my binoculars. You don't need to feel my presence.
But expect yourself to be my reason for smiling. Expect yourself to be my anti-depressant. I can still wait, but forever is uncertain. You just stay there, and make me happy. You don't need to do anything special. Just be there for the rest of us. For God.
You don't need to preach me anything. God will give me a perfect partner someday. Just let me admire you here, away, and understand that this is just a phase I am going through. My heart and mind is only half-matured. In two or three years, this might just be a memory. So, just let it be. God will decide for me someday. For the meantime, you're here. Make my day.
posted by Unknown at 8:09 PM
4 Comments:
I can't believe that you're really relating to me!! but oh well....^_^
I mean we still have some time to enjoy and for the meantime let's just make ourselves happy in what we have as of now.....without assumptions that "OMGROFLMAO HE'S THE ONE!!!1" thingy......
Yeah you're right patty, I think we should you laugh it out and not think about it we still have good years to go!! hay. Thanks for reading my blog! ^__^
God bless!
True. Just a crush. Just a phase. Nothing to get worked up about.
Yer patience inspires me so.
reb-x (:P): I know, I've been too patient. It's been six months beka!! Six months. No words, no awkward introductions, no adds in friendster, no texts, no nothing....A good six months and I stil feel the same.
Wonder if how long this will take me?
Still....I don't want to care. Everything will pass. I'm 14, but something in my heart wished I met him in my twenties. sigh.
But who cares anyway? My feelings will still all be diverted to that someone that God had really prepared for me. ;P
Tin: Yeh, I know, but just in case, just watch over me if I would ever fall into that trap. It doesn't mean that in six months I can hold it in like a pro. >_>;
I'm not perfect to lock it all in especially when it's been hiding long enough..but it's true. Just a phase. Just a phase!! :P
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